I’m going to apologize in advance… this post is just a rambling of random thoughts.

I was having one of my weekly mini meltdowns today with regards to putting Caitilin in daycare.  Doesn’t help that I was reading about how babies will suffer from separation anxiety from the age of 8 months up to 18 months.  It also doesn’t help that she is already showing signs of it.  She gets upsets if I were to leave her in a room to play by herself.  She just breaks down and starts sobbing so bad you think she hurt herself.  My heart breaks every time I think of our impending fate and I don’t know how I am going to handle it.

Caitlin did the sweetest thing today. I was on the floor applying lotion on Mark,  She came over, pulled herself up, and laid her little head on my shoulder.  There she stood for a while, supporting herself on my chest, happy to be next to her mom.  My heart melted.  She is my little princess and all I want to do is protect her and keep her safe for as long as I can.

On my way home from the grocery store today, I heard the song “In My Arms” by Plumb.  It immediately made me think of my kids.  I also thought about how mothers try so hard to protect their babies, no matter how hard it may be.  I love the song… the lyrics are so powerful.  You can check out her MySpace page to listen to it; let me know what you think.  Did I mention that I love this song?  It’s become my new favorite song.  Anyway, here are the lyrics to it.

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In My Arms
~Plump

Your baby blues
So full of wonder
Your Curly Que’s
Your contagious smile
And as I watch
You start to grow up
All I can do is hold you tight
Knowing

Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Story books
Are full of fairy-tales
Of kings and queens
And the bluest skies
My heart is torn just in knowing
You’ll someday see
The truth for lies

Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Castles they might crumble
Dreams may not come true
Cause you are never all alone
Cause I will always
Always love you

Hey I
Hey I
Will love

Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms
In my arms